Saturday, 18 February 2017

Saturday Morning Musings - Where I started to now

This picture popped up in my memories on the Book of Faces today.
It's interesting to look back and see where I started.
I think, at times, all of us get caught up in where we want to be and forget how far we've come.
This was when I decided I first wanted to begin competing. I went to Tiffany Yee in 2011 and began learning from her. I went on to compete in Fitness that April of 2012.
Flash to 2013 when I began working with Sara Hurrle. where you guys saw I was this week.
So, I guess, I ain't mad.
I'm a work in progress.
I always want to be leaner, but I also like potato chips and french fries.
I'll get there. 

Thursday, 16 February 2017

Progress Pic & some easy noms!

First off, I am well aware that I have wrinkles, scars, and am far off from where I used to be.
I took this pic this morning after rolling out of bed and while getting dressed.
However, I see progress slowly back in the ab department.
Hello George!
For me, progress is progress. I will get back where I want to be slowly but surely.
Today, two days after my leg day, I am still shuffling like an old lady.
I did upper body yesterday and will go easy today with more stretching.

We've been using Door to Door Organics for about a month or so now.
We've been so pleased with our Bitty Box each week and have added more to our orders.
We got some awesome organic beets in our box yesterday.
Today I roasted them and sauteed the tops. 
We have definitely been increasing our fruit and veg intake with this.
By the way, if you're interested in Door to Door Organics in your area, look them up!
Plus, if you drop your email address to me, I can send you an invite with $15 off!
The Bitty Box is only $25 regular price anyway, and you can manipulate what's in it and cancel anytime or skip weeks.

Tuesday, 14 February 2017

Happy Valentine's Day!

Yesterday was the first day that I wasn't chasing my nose and able to go back to the gym and begin hitting it harder than walking on the treadmill and doing a few reps of light weights.

I'm super excited about that, however, my work is driving me looney.
I work remotely, so I get sent information to draw and send back.
I can only ask so many times for more or if there are client requirements or if I am missing information. I can also only tell them so many times, supplying graphics, of how certain things just do not work the way the notes say they should, and if I'm not given measurements or corrected info, it's just going to sit there. Today made six days of providing them the drawings showing how 56' just does not fit in an area 25' wide (just an example), what is measured wrong? What part is incorrect? Plus, the angles are out of whack, something just does not work...
I'm a few thousand miles away, it's not like I can jump to a site and go check things myself...
No, finally, it's just like I'm stupid when finally answered.
I weigh the options of keeping the contract work.
I've done it almost 25 years (in April).
One, it screws me royally on taxes since I do not buy many supplies or have merchandise or other extra items an at home business can deduct. Our house is tiny and the office is a speck. Also, I have to pay all of my own self-employment taxes on top of regular taxes, blah, blah, blah...the boring stuff. (Yes, we get them professionally done.)
It's almost not worth it by the time I pay estimated taxes and everything else. I may as well get a fun part-time job where all of that is taken care of.
Two, I am at their mercy because no matter how many times I tell them that I am not sitting next to my computer waiting for them to message me, they inevitably do it whenever they want - 5 in the morning, 6 at night. Don't message for weeks, months, then wonder why I'm not answering in five minutes and able to get a drawing out in a few hours that took two weeks in the field to survey.
Honestly, I'm burned out.
I may have to seriously begin considering other options, if nothing else to gain some of my happy back. I've spent too many years rationalizing the "I get to work from home" bright side. I feel like a trained rat with no reward at times but stress.

But anyway, I have been doing my Days of Happy/Positive/Funny posts.
So far, it has not changed my attitude, lol.
It is only day 14 though, and they say 21 days to change an attitude, habit, etc.
I took a pic today once I was finished at the gym.
I look like utter shit, but I supposed I don't have to look presentable there.

And it's always wonderful when the whole gym smells like weed at 7:30 in the morning. There's a group of guys that smoke in their car before coming in, which I have no clue how they lift and shit being baked, but whatever. It just annoys me that they are out driving and smoking it all day.

Tuesday, 7 February 2017


I am on the tail end of fighting the head funk.
Last week was pretty much a washout come Wednesday. I tried to push through Monday and Tuesday, but crash and burn and snot blossoms everywhere!
Needless to say, I didn't eat much and just crashed on the sofa with boxes of tissue.

Yesterday, I decided to just go do it. Monday is our trash day. I turn on the car to warm up on chilly mornings. While the car was warming up, I did a few chores, one being putting the trash out.
From the corner of my eye, I saw something move. I immediately thought it was one of the bazillion bunnies, but nope, out he came. Mr. Fox.
He began trotting toward me.
I walked away and he picked up a little speed.
So here I am trotting around with a fox behind me laughing hysterically and yelling expletives.
I jumped in the car and tried to grab my phone to snag pics, but he looked at me and went on his merry way. This was not him, but another little guy that was playing one morning.

I've always wanted a pet fox. Maybe this is my way of getting one, lol.

In food fronts, I tried a breakfast pizza for brunch on Sunday. 
I didn't have tapioca flour so I subbed 1/2 coconut flour and 1/2 chickpea flour, which needed much more water and to bake much longer...My crust was a fail. Either I needed to bake the crust longer and before putting toppings, or the flours are just too rich and heavy. I would try it again, but I may do a cauliflower crust, a sweet potato crust that I've made, or an old standby pizza crust recipe from Eating Clean magazine. The toppings were delicious though.

Wednesday, 1 February 2017

February Challenge

Sorry about the absence.
I have been fighting a head cold funk.
Still am, but feeling better.
Yesterday and today I attempted the gym, but yesterday after 20 minutes and the snot waterfall, I decided to spare everyone.
Today, I made it to 40 minutes, lol.

Anyway, today is a new month!
I have been doing some self-improvement reading to help me along this year.
I read the Untethered Soul by Michael Singer. 

and I am currently reading The Art of Happiness by the Dalai Lama.

Both have a ton of food for thought and different views on happiness and life...and humanity.
And one of my goals this year is to definitely find my happiness and be unapologetically me.
However, I also want to be kinder and have more compassion.

That being said, I have found that every time I log into Facebook (mainly it is to deal with my indie book stuff) I cringe. My newsfeed is filled with Blahs.

I decided to do a challenge for this month.
Everyday on Facebook, and my Instagram, I will post a happy or funny, and post something I am grateful for in my life. On those two sites, whoever is down can join in, and I will tag them in my daily posts. It's also part of the journey. 
I would love for you to follow along as well, let's see if we can make it happen!
I want 2017 to rock its ass off!!
Little steps may eventually lead to big change as we go along.

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