Friday, 23 June 2017

There must be a reason and another destination

This is what I am telling myself, but I still can't help but feel disappointment and tears.

I had been in contact with a rather large domestic violence charity/shelter for about two months corresponding back and forth. I had proposed that I donate half of my sales from Ripped and Twisted to them since I receive a good bit of feedback about my heroine's escape from her horrific situation and how she has found a new life, and how readers relate to the story in themselves. However, I did tell them the book was erotic and had BDSM influences.
Hence, they began talking about it up the chain of command, which I completely understand.
I told them from the beginning that I also understood if they declined because of the conotation involved with an author of my genre.
Finally, they declined saying that the 50 Shades arguments involved with all of the domestic violence groups made them not want an association with it.
I told them that I completely understood, and we agreed that perhaps we could find some other resolution to help.

So, imagine my surprise, no shock, when I found out that they had agreed to be the receiving charity, with their name included in the promo and advertising, for a HUGE book event here.
I mean this event is massive!
And 99% erotica and BDSM and kink authors.
I know it was not personal, but I still feel the rejection.
I guess they changed their mind, and that is their right in all ways.
I still have a sad face going on.

Trying to turn my disappointment into a better feeling, I have begun contacting smaller charities and shelters that help those affectd by domestic violence, sexual assault, stalking and other relationship voilence, to see if they may want my meager donations. This is how you strive to find the bright side, right? I will keep repeating that this was not the fit for me, and the universe is pointing me in another direction. I will just have faith that what is meant to be will eventually work out.
I just never knew trying to help or do good deeds was actually this difficult!

I'm glad they will generate a great deal of money for them next month.
I'm glad that many women and children will benefit from the generosity of  the erotic/romance readers, writers, supporters.

Now, I will refocus and hope that what is in alignment for my future will come forth.

Tuesday, 20 June 2017

A long unplugged weekend...with Slick

It was nice to get away, well, two hours away.
We unplugged and got down and dirty.
No cell service.
No internet.
Camp fire cooking.
Getting inspired again.
Reading...real paperbacks.

Monday, 12 June 2017

Hello, hello, hello!

How's it going?
I've been busy, but in the best of ways. 
I have not lost weight, but my shorts I could not button and had big muffin top over, now fit easily!
So, I would say that's an accomplishment.
Yesterday, we stopped at a local bar/restaurant next to my gym for lunch.
I splurged.
This was a jalapeno cornbread waffle with fried chicken breast tenders smothered in a rosemary cream sauce. Can you say mouth-gasm?!
It was huge, and I was only able to eat half of it. Hubs was the same. We begged them not to take if off the menu, but next time we'll split one order.
Hubs got me these, and they have been getting a workout!
They are so freaking comfy and light weight!
I have been adding little spurts of jogging back into my mornings.
My weight training is there, but I have been enjoying my walks/runs better, so the lifting has not been intense. I find I cycle with it. I just don't want to get burned out.
This week my goal is watching and tracking my food.
I have just been winging it.
I downloaded the My Fitness Pal app and have been playing with it.
Right now, I am using the free basic app, but I am stoked about that little scan part!
Damn, I can scan the labels on my fruits, veggies, anything that has it and let it add my calories for me. Alleviates so much tracking that I used to do by hand or searching through lists.
It also syncs with my FitBit which is nice too.
I have been listening to audiobooks, and benefiting greatly from some that I will drop down below.
Some girlfriends and myself are challenging each other with steps and food goals.
I enjoy it because it keeps me accountable.

Oh! Hubs and I have some adventures planned too!
Rdog and Slick will be accompanying us, and I am excited to go hog wild with pictures.
So stayed tuned!

Now on to the inspiring reads!

This one is fantastic! So many parts of it have touched me, and I find myself saying,
"Yes, yes! That's totally what I do!"
She helps with questions and journal projects to help work through issues we all deal with, and how to initiate a change. As I listened to it, I would immediately feel lighter when I realized what I am doing and it is possible to change thought patterns and habits that hold me back.
I highly recommend it.

You can always check out her blog as well - Play With The World

Next up is an author that I am just in love with. Her books just resonate with me on every level. 

I originally was reading a copy from the library, but then I decided that I had to purchase it.
Much like Spirit Junkie and May Cause Miracles, I know I will reread these over again.
It's another step in letting go of fear, worry, and to trust your instincts and inner -ing.
Hey, I'm still working on it, but her books are wonderful guides to understaning yourself and transforming the anxiety, fear, and stories we create in our head into something better.

I have a list a mile long of books that I still want to read, but I always put Gabby's first when I see them. I know there is another of hers that I still need to read too.
I am loving finding these authors who are helping others to help and understand themselves, myself included!

Let's face it, they are helping me get to a much better place in life. I am excited to LIVE life and go after all that I dream of too.

Thursday, 25 May 2017

Body Paint, Buff Guys, and Books

I have been MIA. Sorry!! I have been prepping for this!
This weekend I attended my first book signing event:
Naturally Naughty In NOLA.
I have to tell you that it was the best time ever!
My only regret is not getting to meet all of the other authors or partake of the before and after parties.
Next time, I will not tell family I am there, hahaha!
I was unable to interact much at set up because this was happening!
That's right! I got body painted from the waist up body the reknown Angela Rene Roberts from Season One of Skin Wars!
I showed up like this:
and was transformed. I did the whole four hour event topless...
Hey, you know me.

Angela's husband, Cully Firmin, was the male model. He was a brave soul and went bare ass, and front too! Here we are toward the end of the signing.
I met so many wonderful people, authors, bloggers, readers, male cover models!
Check out
Alfie Gordillo
and Dusty Griffin
Two of the sweetest hunks of men you will ever get the pleasure of meeting!

This is my newest companion, Slick the Fox.
He has been bombing my Instagram with his cute self, and even attended the event with me.
He stayed and watched my table all day. 
Be prepared to see Slick and my adventures

Wednesday, 26 April 2017

Wednesday Roundup

Mornings have been looking like this lately.
Meditation. Coffee. Inspirational Reading. Catching up on notifications & messages.
Cuddles from my heart.
As I told two friends this week, I am pu$$y deep in self-help reading.
I will have some new ones to share with you soon.
I did find this great free app on my android phone. 
I have been using it consistently for almost 30 days.
It is wonderful!!
You can choose from almost 5000 guided meditations, anywhere from one minute to hours.
There are many different categories to explore.
There's also just a timer that you can set with sounds, music, etc.
I am in love with it and have been beginning each morning with a guided meditation or two.

I did some progress pics on Friday.
I was curious how I was looking from the back.
Not the butt this time.
At least you can see a little something brewing!
I know I still have fluff, but it's something!
Well, I should not be left alone with scissors and clippers.
Today at the gym, it got tucked behind my ear for super pixie look.
Eh, it's just hair!

Friday, 21 April 2017

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Wednesday, 19 April 2017

Quick, Easy, Healthy Shrimp Rice Stir Fry.

This is super simple, especially if you prep a big batch of rice for the week.
I always have sweet peppers and jalapeno peppers around too.
You can also prepare this the night before and bring for a packed lunch to heat up.
I did that for hubs too.

What you will need:

4 oz shrimp - I buy them frozen, peeled and deveined. Hey, land locked state.
Sweet peppers - I used 4
Jalapeno peppers - I used 1/2 of one
Zucchini - I used maybe a 1/3 cup sliced thin
1/2 cup +/- of chopped broccoli 
2 small cloves of garlic
1 1/2 teaspoons of coconut oil
1/2 cup brown rice
1/4 teaspoon Chinese Five Spice (optional)

I sauteed my veggies first until softer, but not mush.
Then I added the shrimp.
When the shrimp were close, I added my 1/2 cup of rice and the Chinese Five Spice, and tossed it about the pan.

Take off and enjoy!

Tuesday, 18 April 2017

Reading, Writing, Thoughts, and A$$ update! (and Pic)

I know. I know.
I've been a little M.I.A.
That's because I have a new book releasing next week, but on to other stuff.
I have been on the self-love, happiness train!
I have been voraciously reading, and listening.
Gotta love audiobooks for the treadmill!
Here are my two most recent.
I listened to this one.
It was not as fast-paced or lively as You Are A Badass, however, the stories were poignant.
I found myself having to hold back tears in the middle of the gym.
Listening to all of these stories, especially the people who faced such diversity, yet went on to do monumental things with their life, stirred me.
I have learned that I want to say, "Yes," more.
I want to help others more.
I want to inspire.
I want to entertain.
I want to make my big dreams come true.
I want to provide Happy Acts towards others.
So, with just those few ideas that I've mentioned, it's definitely worth a listen.

I am almost finished with this one.
Gala is a new super hero of mine!
She is funny, deep, totally out there, and speaks to me.
She looks at how we should take responsibility for our thoughts, choices, people in our life, where we are now. If we are not happy in situations, it's our own responsibility to make choices to change that, otherwise, you're just going to mire in your own miserable head, and life.
I sped through this book. It's easy to read and understand.
She sprinkles her own journey, including the stuff most of us are afraid to admit.
But setting the truth out there is freedom, isn't it?

I'm coming closer and closer to setting myself free, so hang in there with me on this journey.
Speaking of, I have this weird distortion of myself in the mirror, which is why I take so many selfies.
You guys should see what doesn't make it here or on Instagram!
(Just a note: Gala has a theory on taking selfies until you love whatever part of your body that you hate.)
Somehow, it makes me see clearly what I have going on.
We know I have my journey for my bubble butt.
It's not there yet, but I took this pic. For me, I see some progress. Granted, I still have cellulite, but hey, it's not anything I haven't gotten rid of before.
and I am finally seeing a bit of curve from my flatness!

So, not that I have horrified you, on to a bit of other news.
More recipes to come.
I have been enjoying so much in the realm of real food.
I have been keeping it pretty simple, which is probably why I have posted many photos of food!

I began a group on Facebook. It is a combo Street Team, Reader's Group, Source of Inspiration and Support of Finding Happiness and Positive Vibes. 
Oh and there is silliness and some sexy stuff too.
Yes, I have the conclusion to The Surrender of Luella : Perchance to Dream Book One releasing next week. 

I find that I have been imparting more life messages into my erotica. So far, I am pleased with the feedback from the people that received an ARC. They said it made them think, reevaluate how they perceive situations, and even cry.
No matter what happens after the release, how can I feel bad with feedback like that?

Thursday, 6 April 2017

Giving Back - I would like to play a part

I would like your input. I am thinking of trying something - giving back if you will. I have received quite a few messages from women who have read Ripped & Twisted over the past few years, telling me how they related so much to Faith's situation with domestic violence that she escaped from. It got me thinking, and I will pick a month, maybe next month or June (probably June because May is pretty slammed & it will give me more time to plan promotion.) During that month, half of the proceeds from sales of Ripped & Twisted will go to a charity/nonprofit for those who are victims of domestic violence. I have been reviewing many, but it's overwhelming. If you have any recommendations of groups that are stellar in helping victims, please list them below. Please list them below. If you see one that you are for, like the comment, just to keep it from being too repetitive. Afterwards, I will create a poll to vote for the top groups. Then, I will plan the month and we can promote it. Does that sound good?
Also if you would like to comment on the post on my Facebook page, click this LINK.

Thursday, 30 March 2017

Opening myself to new things.

I'm trying something that I never thought I would get into.
Wait, not true.
I had (still have) a friend in grammar school. He introduced me to all sorts of ideas. He was always progressive. He studied Buddhism, many Eastern religions and philosophers, meditation, liked Neil Young. Now, mind you, this was like in 7th & 8th grade at a Catholic school too!
He tried to get me into mediation back then.
I gave it a half-assed attempt, but what did I know as a kid in the 80's.
I'm admitting that I am now giving it a try once again, and I'm happy to say that I don't hate it.
By the way, he married one of my best childhood friends. They dated in high school, and now she (they) have an organic farm that is successful in Texas.

During this first quarter of the year of The Happiness Project and embracing Positive Vibes, I am learning that I like the hippie-dippie part of me!
I am reading so many good books, and listening on audiobooks too.
I am more inspired, learning to pursue that calm, and 

So if you have any great sources of guided meditations, especially for manifesting, please drop the links in the comments!

Maybe I'll try going back to yoga too.

This definitely does not mean that I'm giving up my pervy side. Hell no! 

In the slow process, I am trying to reduce and negate many of my negative habits in the food and adult beverage department too. Food is coming along wonderfully!
I have embraced trying to keep it to 90% whole foods.
In actuality, I am allergic to dairy, but I LOVE cheese!!
I am trying to make changes with that.
Last night, I made this recipe.
Really, I only made the sauce, but you know what? It's not bad at all, and it's actually growing on me.
It was a huge batch, so I refrigerated it and have been pouring it over my ground turkey and salsa today for a meal that seems far more decadent than it is!

Obviously, I've not embraced veganism again...but who knows?
This new journey is taking me to all sorts of places that I didn't think I would go to again.
It's a vegan cauliflower sauce mac & cheese from