Wednesday, 31 August 2016


This morning, I stepped on the scale, and for the first time since December, my weight was below 120 pounds. So what if it's a mere 0.2 pounds below? You have no idea how ecstatic it made me to see numbers without 12 in front of them. 

Now granted, I still have a long way to go, but I took a flex photo after the gym this morning. I see teeny delineations. It's a start.

Happy Hump Day!
Perhaps this means I'm over my hump!
Now to work on my rump again.

Tuesday, 30 August 2016

"Sushi" Bowl

In an effort to get back on track, I have been trying to eat better.
However, I don't want just plain old chicken and brown rice and broccoli or white fish and spinach salads. 
And gosh help me, I have been on a sugar binge, so I need to find some better ways to manage that and maybe make foods that aren't bad.

Anyway, this is a super simple bowl.
It's easy to throw together from items I usually always have on hand.

1/2 cup brown rice (at the bottom)
diced cucumber without the peel
1/2 avocado diced
some diced jalapeno
smoked salmon shredded
sprinkle of low sodium soy
drizzle of Sriracha

Monday, 29 August 2016

Here we are again. The ugly truth.

Yep. This is basically a post about what I've done to myself.
I have had no willpower or discipline, well as far as food is concerned. I have basically been trying to out exercise a poor diet. It doesn't work, and rationally I know this.
So, I am back to my chunky self, again.

I decided to post these selfies. Why? Because when I did this often, it kept me accountable, made me feel more responsibility for myself, actually made me see myself.
I have been completely embarrassed to do so this past year.

I think the realization hit me when I was doing a live video Q&A for my latest smut novel. They are fun, people enjoy them, AND they can only see me from chest up. However, the point is that I was asked if I would ever consider doing a book about health and fitness, like a legit book.
I couldn't lie, but I didn't say, "Well, I don't follow my own advice so how could I write one for others." In actuality, I don't think I have enough educational experience to do so, but I had often thought of adding Ripped Recipes to an updated edition to Ripped & Twisted.

I think it made me think, question myself even more than I have been. Slapped me in the face. People still think I'm fit and able to help them, but I'm not.
I mean, I was certified to teach Boot Camp classes. I've taken many anatomy & physiology classes, studied exercise and its effects on the cardio/pulmonary system. I'm not completely ignorant...but I have faltered in the lifestyle too. 
I am joke. I am a lie.
I have decided to come clean, and have been cleaning up my food this past week. 
In the past, showing my journey inspired me, motivated me, and helped me stay on track.
And though I am older now, maybe it can still help inspire a few others.

So here you have, my pudge, my cottage cheese, my thickness.

Friday, 5 August 2016

Because I'm still chasing Dat A$$...

I know it doesn't show, but some of my weight (aka fat) has finally been coming off.
I have been working my buns off.
I have been adjusting my food.
No, it's still not perfect.
But today, at the gym, I did notice my booty pops slightly more than it used to, so that made me happy. And me being me, I had to snap a pic.
I know I still have a way to go before I am as lean as I would like to be, but hopefully, the booty doesn't disappear, lol.