Tuesday, 26 June 2012

A little venting, some funny and good stuff, and a recipe

I won't lie.
There have been a ton of downs lately, but I won't go into that.
I've fallen back on some old bad habits.
Trying to turn that around.

Working out and lifting definitely help.

I most definitely want to compete again.
However, the expense.....
I have been unable to find part time work to support my "hobby".
I am super lucky to have a great gym membership, so I am able to keep working out.
I have been eating okay.  (That's where some old emotional eating, cocktailing has come into play the past few weeks.)
Fitness is super expensive because of the routine aspect.
To up my routine, I really need to learn tumbling and more strength and flexibility to bring it to a higher level that judges look for.
I am definitely trying to do some on my own.
There is a natural show that I would like to compete in in October.
I do not want to completely commit to it though because I don't know if I can keep up with the cost of nutrition, posing, routine choreography, tumbling, etc.
I guess if it's meant to happen, it will.
On a side note, I have been trying to educate myself more on nutrition for bodybuilding, competition (without doing metabolic damage), and such.  All the information is just so flippin' confusing!

This past competition, I had put a good chunk of money on the side just for this goal.
Of course, I was getting a decent amount of contract work.
I was also performing frequently, and had held a part time job.
Unfortunately, all of that has pretty much dried up.
I know that hubby would be willing to add to my coffers, so to speak.
I think that I'm not willing to ask for his monetary support for that because it is not a "necessity" in my life.  I prefer to pay for my extras myself.
Plus, this is the first time that I have not had any income of my own since I was 13.
Like I said, I'll keep putting myself out there, and if it's meant to happen, it will.

But, instead, let me show you some good things.
No matter what, doggies always make me smile.
We are lucky enough to have two very spastic dogs.
First, I should point out that he was fine.
I was going about my morning rituals, and I kept hearing weird scratching noises coming from the kitchen.  We have a sliding glass door that I leave open when I'm home for the dogs to have free access to the back door.  (Well, I leave it open only in the mornings when we're 100 to 105 degrees!)
I also have a bunch of garden boxes that I have wire edging around.  I put this around one of our compost bins too because a certain pup likes to dig underneath to try and retrieve "tasty" items from it.
Well, someone had decided to try and get his big head through and this is what happened.

He got two pieces loose, but managed to get them tangled and hooked to his collar.
He knew to come to mom to get those crazy things off of him.
Crazy boy.

We also have two ferrets.  We have a large play pen (for critters) that we keep on our lower level, in our office/sewing/craft room.  That's where we hang out in the evenings.  We bring them out to play with us there.  Otherwise, they sleep have another 3 level condo cage in a spare room.  Also, we have to keep them separated because sir up there thinks they are some weird type of squirrel that he wants to chase and eat.  Ferrets sleep - a lot.  We are horrible and take advantage to snap pictures.
This is Ichabod ~ passed out..... from what?

Yes, we're evil and easily amused.

I got a real treat this past week.  A friend from home sent me a goodie package!
Check this out!

Praline & Creme coffee beans!
He owns one of these franchises back home.  Aren't I lucky?!
Two Hubigs pies, these are my weakness.
Since I was a child, I drool over these.
A local entertainment paper with the awesomeness of New Orleans.
I was giddy over this box.

I thought that I'd share this recipe.
It's from Chef Paul Prudhomme's  Fork In The Road cookbook.
This cookbook is his healthy recipes.
Wait, isn't that an oxymoron for him, hahahaha?

This is his recipe for Orleans Shrimp.  I'll put the changes that I made in brackets.  I cut down the recipe to serve 2 and only used 1/2 cup brown rice for each of us.

Seasoing Mix 
[I just used his Magic Meat Seasoning, then added smoked paprika, basil, oregano and thyme] 
1 Tbsp sweet paprika
2 teaspoons dried sweet basil leaves
1 1/2 teaspoons onion powder
1 1/2 teaspoons garlic powder
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon dry mustard
1/2 teaspoon black pepper
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano leaves
1/2 teaspoon dried thyme leaves
1/4 teaspoon white pepper
1/4 teaspoon cayenne [I added more to taste]

1 pound peeled medium shrimp [used about 10 large shrimp each for us]

1 1/2 cup chopped onions
1 cup chopped green bell peppers [omitted this because hubby does not like bell peppers]
1/2 cup chopped celery
3 bay leaves
1 1/2 cups apple juice, in all
[instead of apple juice I used water and splashed in apple cider vinegar]
1 teaspoon minced fresh garlic
2 cups peeled, diced fresh tomatoes OR a 14 1/2 ounce can diced tomatoes
[used grape tomatoes that I had on hand and diced them leaving the peels on]
1/2 cup tomato sauce [used no salt added]
1 cup defatted seafood stock [subbed low sodium organic chicken stock and water]
6 cups cooked long-grain white rice
[we each had 1/2 cup cooked brown rice]

Combine all the seasoning mix ingredients in a small bowl.

Sprinkle shrimp evenly with 2 teaspoons of the seasoning mix and set aside.

Preheat a heavy 10 inch skillet, preferably nonstick, over high heat to 350, about 4 minutes.

Add the onions, bell peppers, celery, bay leaves, and 3 tablespoons of the seasoning mix.  Stir and cook until the vegetables start to brown, about 4 to 5 minutes.  Add 1 cup of the apple juice and the garlic, and stir to clear the bottom of the skillet of all brown bits.  Cook until the apple juice evaporates completely and the bottom of the skillet dries out, about 12 to 13 minutes. 

Stir the vegetables, spread them out, and cook 2 or 3 minutes until they are a rich-looking brown, to bring out their natural sweetness.  Add the tomatoes and the remaining seasoning mix, scrape the bottom of the skillet completely, and cook 2 minutes.  Stir in the tomato sauce, the stock, and remaining apple juice.  Scrape the bottom of the skillet, bring to a boil, and cook about 7 to 8 minutes.  Add the shrimp and cook just until they start to turn pink and plump, about 4 minutes.  Turn off the heat and serve over the rice.

Here's the nutritional info for the original recipe.  I did not take the time to try and redo the info on my changes.  I'm sure it's less because I did not use apple juice and switched to brown rice and less of it too.

Per 1 cup serving: 468 calories, Protein 26g Fat 3g, Carbohydrates 82g

Now, I have to go outside and do some yard work before the temperatures get up to 103 today!



Tuesday, 19 June 2012

It wasn't as bad as I thought

Today, I met with my coach for the first time in over a month.
It was supposed to be a 15 minute body fat, measurement and weigh in.
It turned into an hour of us talking.
This. Is. Why. I. Love. Her.
She made me feel like my dreams are all possible.
She made me realize a few things that have been nagging at me are not to be worried about.
We discussed my goals.
We discussed some opportunities that may be available in the future.
We talked of many things.
I'm thinking of doing a natural show in October.
But anyway, on to the stats.

Weight = 109
Body Fat was around 19%

So, it wasn't that bad.
I was up 3 pounds from the week after my competition.
My body fat was up and my muscle was down, but we knew that was going to happen from the weeks that I was ill and not eating.
Now, I'm back on my building nutrition plan and lifting plan.
I'll see her in 10 days to see how I'm doing.

Sunday, 17 June 2012

Nerd Fun

Okay, so this is what a month of sporadic working out and no eating get you....
back to square one.

Well, at least, I don't have all the fat to lose once again, it's just the muscle building again.
I will be beginning my nutrition plan that I got the day I found out (all the previous stuff you've read about) tomorrow.
This weekend, my husband took me to nerd-y heaven, Denver's First Comic Con.
I can say James Marsters is just as freaking hot as he was all those years ago on Buffy and Angel.
Just a little more rugged with age and with brown hair.... Mmmmm....
Those who don't know, he was Spike on Buffy and Angel.
Hubby knew I just wanted to be creepy old lady and go run and rub myself all over him, hahaha.
The funny part was, hubby was like, go run and do it!
If there weren't so many volunteer security people around, I would have totally gone perv!!
This is what he looked like except in a nice tight black tee.....

Then, I had to ogle Kristin Bauer van Straten "Pam" from True Blood.
She was 1000x more gorgeous than on TV.

I have decided that next year, I will dress up and have music following me.  I will more than likely be a Star Wars character, sexay style and have these songs following me.
That is, if I am not in a booth with my podcast....
the Pipe Dream (lpmpodcast!)
But, we have to cast more than we have....

And just for my morbid sense of humor and the Zombie Bath Salts incident!  Here's his newest!

Tuesday, 12 June 2012


So, I decided to disable comments for this post.
1. I don't want sympathy.
2. I don't want dirty, mean comments.
3. Not to be mean, but I'm tired of the "It's not the right time", "You can adopt", blah, blah, blah - 
sorry, not to be mean, but I've heard this for decades now.

I have decided to share what's going on in my life.
It's a blog, right?

I've been MIA, no surprise.
Turns out the day after my 39th birthday, I found out that I was pregnant.
It's happened several times before.
Unfortunately, all have had the same outcome as I am about to describe.
We started off watching my HCG levels to make sure they were doubling.
Well, this time, they were!
Turns out, though, we weren't sure when this happened since I had lost my period while preparing and competing.  Since we weren't sure when conception was and my past miscarriages, we did an ultrasound.
5 1/2 weeks.
Then, we scheduled another for 10 days later.
Then, what always happens happened.
I went in the next Friday.
I should have been 6 1/2 to 7 weeks.
Nope, still stuck at the same exact measurements.
Once again, blighted ovum.

I was given the weekend to think about how I wanted to handle it.
Monday came and the bleeding was heavy and the cramping had begun.
I went Tuesday for an ultrasound, and it seemed like it was occurring "naturally."
The lining was already expelled.

Tuesday night, I woke up in horrible pain.  Imagine period cramps on steroids.
None of the scripts or meds helped.  Wednesday came.  More of the same, but now nausea came in to play.  Fun.
Still no relief, even from prescribed narcotic pain killers.
Thursday more of the same.
Friday, it continues, but now, there are chills, nausea, pain, and fever.
Doc gets me in in the evening.  She was in surgery all day.
For some reason, it doesn't want to come out all the way.  Because the cervix is opened, the adenomyosis has increased the pain and bleeding and bacteria has probably entered causing an infection - hence the fever.  It's past 5pm now, and everyone in the office is calling and running across the way to the hospital to try and get me in in the morning.
I had had water and soda only an hour earlier otherwise she was going to bring me over right then.
Well, good news came and they were able to get an OR spot in the morning.
So, at 5:30 the next morning, I went in and she extracted what was left.

I'm now feeling tons better and am on antibiotics.
I'm undergoing some tests to see if there is any realistic possibility for a future viable one.
I have so many issues with my uterus, plus several miscarriages and other issues pertaining to this....
She's giving me answers to help me decide without guilt if I should just get the uterus removed.

Needless to say, last week, I barely ate and lost weight and I'm sure muscle.  My training has been sporadic at best.  This week, my frame of mind is finally coming back to normal and I would like to go to the gym regularly because I miss it and the mental relief it gives me.

So there's why I 've been away.
It hasn't been because I have purposely been being crazy or anything.
And I'm sure that I have not been as eloquent as I would have liked.
Maybe I sound a little callous even.
If anything, I believe that I'm trying to keep myself detached and a little in denial.

Sunday, 3 June 2012

Negative Nellie

I don't want to be that.
The past week has been hard.
There have been all of these amazing opportunities presented to me in the past month.
At the same time, there has been life.
Unfortunately, the two did not mix.

In short, in the next week or so, I will more than likely be having surgery.
I have not been at my best the past week, with new occurrences in my life.
I am trying to wrap my head around it.
Those who have followed for a while know that I have many female issues.
Things have been compounded and worsened.
It is probably for the best that this is happening, yet it still saddens me.

I am REALLY trying to focus on the positives.
At the same time, it seems like Murphey's Law.
Everything was going in a positive direction, new opportunities were being offered, there were possibly amazing things on the horizon.
Hopefully, I can wrangle those back in after this.
Hopefully, I won't be out of the game for too long.

HOpefully, after this little hiccup, things will smooth out and continue on.
Trying to focus on this as just another opportunity to make a good change in my life and make things even better.